My Self-Love Journey: Learning to Care for Myself Through Art, Anxiety, and Creativity
- Abby Juli
- Apr 19
- 2 min read
Self-love wasn’t something I just “had.”
For most of my life, I felt like I was too sensitive, too anxious, too stuck in my own head. I overthought everything. I doubted myself constantly. And honestly… I didn’t really like who I was.
I didn’t realize how harsh I was being to myself until it started exhausting me.
Living with anxiety made everything louder—every fear, every insecurity, every “what if.” It felt like my own mind was working against me.
But somewhere along the way… I started changing.
Not in a big, dramatic way.
Just slowly.
I stopped trying to force myself to be someone I’m not.
I started letting creativity be an escape instead of pressure.
I leaned into the things that actually comforted me—like art, my pets… and honestly, rom coms and romance books.
I’m a total sucker for love stories.
I believe in them so deeply… even when I struggle to fully feel that same kind of love for myself.
And that’s the part I’m still learning.
Because the truth is, I catch myself saying I don’t care about myself sometimes… but that’s not completely true.
If I didn’t care, I wouldn’t keep creating.
I wouldn’t pour myself into my art, my poetry, my photography, my websites.
I wouldn’t keep showing up, even on the hard days.
Some part of me does care.
Even if it’s quiet. Even if it’s still growing.
And maybe that’s where my self-love actually lives right now.
Not in confidence. Not in perfection.
But in the fact that I keep going.
I keep creating for me.
And if something I make—something I feel—can help even one person feel less alone…
then that’s enough for me.
I’m still healing.
Still learning.
Still figuring it out.
But I’m starting to see that self-love doesn’t have to be loud to be real.
Sometimes it looks like staying.
Sometimes it looks like creating.
Sometimes it just looks like… not giving up on yourself.
And right now?
That’s enough.